So. I am doing it. Getting (sickness insurance funded) prostheses. I have an appointment today with someone at in petto berlin for measurements.
I have been debating with myself not only whether I could be bothered, but also whether it would be hypocritical and go against everything I have been preaching. “We don’t need fake boobs in order to feel like real women”, and various other bullshit. (I have previously explained why I decided against reconstruction, and that was one of the reasons although in that context a minor consideration).
The thing is, after a radical mastectomy, you are actually beyond flat in a way. So much has been removed that you get a kind of scooped-out look, and in some clothes I notice it every time I pass a mirror or window, and I see others noticing it too, and there are just days where I do not feel like rocking that look and would like a bit more of a silhouette that goes outwards rather than inwards.
Conditioning, conformity, convention …. I know, but it will be nice to have the choice, depending on mood and choice of clothes.
But it would also be nice if more clothes were designed to camouoflage the concavities a bit.